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#1 Samuel

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Posted 27 July 2020 - 06:05 PM

Hello fellas! My name is Samuel. I've been mostly known in the community as "Samuel" (yeah, very original, I know), but also as "Cinde" or HierO". I've been playing sof 2 demo for like about like 10-12? years. I've ended my sof2 "career" as part of "c4" clan, which are very dear to me. 

 

I am really glad to see this forum is still up and even see some familiar names around, which is great!

 

Basically this post is a message of appreciation to my old buddies and this community in general. I doubt many of my teammates or buddies are here anymore, but who knows, maybe they'll also swing by as I did and see this post and read my appreciation.

 

I know this post may come off as cheesy to some or maybe even surprising to those who remember me, but I need you to hear me out. This game and it's community is oddly enough a huge part of my childhood and life in general. Let me explain.

 

I'll start with the fact, that I had a straight up terrible childhood. By the time I've found about this game, I had no friends, my family was poor as bloody shit, my parents divorced and there was pretty much nobody to look after me as a kid. And there was tons of other dark shit going on in my life as a teenager. I changed like 6 schools in a matter of 7 years and dropped out of school afterwards. I was very closed person due to all the shit that's been going on and I didn't have any social life whatsoever.
One of the ways to cope with shit was putting as much time into video games as possible and since I never really had any money to buy games, the only real option was a free sof 2 mp-test, that some dude showed to me. Man, it rocked my world. It was so good, I remember playing sof for 10-15 hours straight every day. And that's where I started meeting new people and having social interactions. I didn't know English whatsoever and basically learned it exclusively by texting in-game as well as forums (I'm still learning, haha). I still remember people correcting me on most basic stuff.
As time passed, I've built connections with the people in community. As sad it might be, those were the only friends I had and I really loved them. My life was dark and miserable, but as soon as I opened the game, I had unimaginable fun, and was able to experience some form of happiness. I remember hours and hours of laughter on custom servers, where we would build people-towers and just goof around, playing mixes and wars. It was so much fun.

I remember the day when 'Hokie'  has passed away, it was a real shock for me, it was as if a person I knew in real life had passed away, I was genuinely hurt. Even though I didn't know him much, still to this day I remember how he gave me a chance to do a trial for 3v that gave me an ultimate confidence boost in this game and then declined me after couple trial matches, because he was convinced I was wall-hacking. haha. I remember thinking to myself "what a dumb-ass, but damn it's a great compliment, I must be better than I think" haha.. We had many fun interactions afterwards, because I joined sK. and then joined c4. after. I still remember him today as well as 'Wombat' and 'Haapis' may they rest in peace, such fun and great people they were.

The point I am trying to make here is that for me personally, this game and community, was the best thing that could happen to me at the moment and the place I was at. I would go as far as to say it really saved my life, because I was very broken and even suicidal at times. Had literally no one to laugh with, no one to talk to. This community gave me so much of that. I know I was always awkward and felt like misfit at times, but it didn't matter, cause I had amazing time with all of you.
 

My English has improved a lot as I've played, communicated and used team-speak and vent. I basically ended up learning the language and it helped me change my life tremendously in the future. I started travelling when I was 18 in order to try to change my life and it did and I could never do that without being able to speak English. Today, everything is better than I could ever wish for, I just had a 5 year anniversary with my lovely wife, I have an amazing 3 year old daughter. I've made something of myself. My childhood has definitely taken it's huge toll on my life and my mental health and I'll have to deal with it for the rest of my life, but I would be in a way-way-way darker place if it wasn't for all of you guys (to whom it may concern) and this funny little game with one map. I still have the warmest memories and huge gratitude to all the people that even in a perverted and "online" way were friends and buddies to me. They were really the best thing I had and a huge part of my recovery and I no one even knew, so I though it would be good to share this with you.

I would like to mention some names that I have in mind and thank them for just being there, no matter if we had friendly or hostile interactions really, they all mattered to me (no particular order):

 

My estonian homies Apoc and Rocket, all my c4 teammates, all 3v, |she|, sK, avelgem (hated these kids, they were so cocky and good lmao), sL, R-Z, HaZe, and other teams, people like Ghostbuster, Reflex, King Richard steven, indOsteelo, NavySeal, Angel, Delta, or3l, Blue, Katana, Junior, Renegade, Camper, Skyline, Soul, Finnie, Blade, Dyynde, Hero, Butcher, Azzy, volume, synx, inou, luminaire, Yankowich, Xillax, priest, snugg, paahtie, murdoc, kuyuchi, mr. mike, dark, malydok, xillax (what a dick he always was haha, liked him though), camham, fainth, katana, merax, dan-g, funky, daniel, scott, frozen,  and shitton of all other people I've forgot to mention from the top of my head (sorry), I just want to say thanks and hope you all are doing well! 

 

I am not gonna check these forums much anymore, but if anyone wants to just chat for whatever reason, you can add me on steam for example:  https://steamcommunity.com/id/samzy_tv

 

Hope some of the folks will see this message and even if most people won't, I still wanted to show some form of appreciation. Hope you all have a great day, great week and let's all have a better 2020 than it already was amarite. Bless!

 



#2 ind0steelo

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Posted 28 July 2020 - 08:46 AM

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Posted 28 July 2020 - 08:57 AM

yo Sam, what a story that is man! I never knew you had such a rough time. It makes me very happy to see that you found your path in life and that we  contributed to you finding a feeling of happiness in your darker days.

 

We have a saying in Dutch, "wie goed doet, goed ontmoet", which basically means those that do good things for others, can expect good things in their life as well: I think it's safe to say that we've always thought of you as a great guy, so it only makes sense that the good things have found their way to your life and mind as well ;)!

 

I wish you, your wife and your daughter all the best in your lives and hope that perhaps one day the scars of your childhood will completely heal!

 

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Posted 02 August 2020 - 11:51 AM

I see your life went downhill, since you're not playing sof2demo anymore :(

 

Always welcome for a revival mixwar sam


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Posted 02 August 2020 - 09:28 PM

Hell of a story Samuel.

It's true that you carry the past as luggage, but don't let it define you. They are experiences you share with your children, all you can do is make it better for them and for yourself.

I funnily had a bit of a different experience, to be honest. Kinda sucky childhood too, but not comfortable to go into that, it is what it is, and it's beyond me today. I did have amazing friends though IRL, but sof2 kinda destroyed some of my friendships, I can honestly say I was addicted to this game lol..

I don't think I regret it because the sof2 years were amazing on their own, I met a lot of cool people, even irl! Somehow it gave me confidence as well, seeing how good I could be at something, probably a dorky thing to say lol.. but today I feel like I can be good at anything I put my mind to, it reflects on my job too, I never say "I can't do this", I just go ahead and try, and feel a lot of satisfaction when a job is well done. (Maintenance technician, but I do a lot of projects, revisions of machinery, even some plumbing or basic electrician stuff, teaching forklift or platform as an instructor to people, very all-round job.)

I stopped gaming years ago, did some mixes during the pandemic lockdown though!


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Posted 15 August 2020 - 09:07 AM

hey man, I think many of us were using this lovely game as an escape but as you said it wasn't totally in vain. maybe I am looking at this through nostalgia glasses, but I think demobase/sof2 community was just the place for some of us - it was small enough for almost everyone to know each other much like a small village, but big enough for us to run around and form our own little clans(dare I say families?) and I'd say it was better than the alternative.

 

with that being said, sorry for having been such a cunt to many of you throughout all this :mellow: :wub:


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Posted 21 August 2020 - 05:07 PM

Nice to see you around again Samuel :)


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Posted 22 August 2020 - 10:53 AM

hey man, I think many of us were using this lovely game as an escape but as you said it wasn't totally in vain. maybe I am looking at this through nostalgia glasses, but I think demobase/sof2 community was just the place for some of us - it was small enough for almost everyone to know each other much like a small village, but big enough for us to run around and form our own little clans(dare I say families?) and I'd say it was better than the alternative.

 

with that being said, sorry for having been such a cunt to many of you throughout all this :mellow: :wub:

Pretty much this.

I also had a dark period where it was; fuck everything except this game, but life always finds a way..
Glad you found your way too Sam.

This game was really something special for a lot of us, and no one can take that away from us :)



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Posted 22 August 2020 - 11:50 PM

Greetings,

 

This was meaningful post and I agree with a lot of the sentiments shared.

 

I hope everyone is doing well in their lives. I still think of people and memories from this game occasionally.


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Posted 18 September 2020 - 04:57 AM

this is the best thing ever written on db

 

thank you for sharing this  :wub:


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